For a long time it felt like life just wasn’t normal. It felt like we never knew what was coming next. Every week was different. As we have settled into more of a routine, our family has grown so much closer. It also scares me to think about starting my own business. I do not really want to “rock the boat” but at the same time, I know it is the only way I can stay at home and be there for my family the way I want to be.
I think that is pretty normal there is always something standing in front of you when you are ready to begin your dream. It’s almost like we cannot accept that our dreams are coming true so we have to find reasons for them to be stopped, we create imaginary obstacles for ourselves.
What is your imaginary obstacle and why are you making it there?
Ever have a dream, that you thought about but never really anticipated it to take shape? That’s where I am. As I start to file my paperwork to make my company the real deal, it feels so surreal. I am almost hesitant to do it, because that makes it more real. Which means there is no backing out of it now, kind of thing. For someone who has been known to struggle with commitment let me tell you it can be a little nerve racking. At the same time, I can’t help but feel like it’s my baby and I just want it to be so perfect, and so successful.
Research, Research, Research…
While the clock is ticking and my business slowly takes shape, the website almost being done (thanks to my awesome nerdy husband), my paperwork almost filed, all I need is to make an order and start selling. That’s it right? You can research all you want about the best way to make money with an online retail store, but really it all comes down to the person who is doing it, and their amount of willingness to make it work. I know I have that, I know I have the want to make it. I just have to do it!
I’ll keep researching and I’ll keep working at it – but my real question, where does all this money come from…
I grew up a pretty privileged life, my dad worked hard for us but we had it pretty easy. Growing up people always made it sound like getting everything you wanted was a bad thing. The older I get the more I realize it isn’t a bad thing at all. I remember my dad making us work for things that we wanted. I remember pulling a whole hillside of weeds for a week just so that we could get a trampoline. I remember long days of cleaning the camper just because we took out it out for a few days. My parents gave us a lot, but they also made us work for a lot too. Today I realize how valuable that is. I do get the things I want, but I work my ass for them. The last few years I slaved working 60-80 hour weeks, just to support my family so that we could barely make our ends meet while my husband worked diligently for his dream, and while I found whatever jobs I could to make our lives work, I did that. We have come so far in 3 years of marriage as a family, and I am proud of that. I am proud that because we work so hard we get exactly what we want. Even though sometimes it happens at a slower pace then we would like. We get it. Right now I am sitting in my kitchen admiring my house that Adam and I bought together, and it’s not fancy but it’s ours. While Adam puts together my website for my new online boutique (that I am so excited to get started by the way!) All I can do is sit here and be thankful for all of the wonderful things we have. I really believe that anyone can have whatever they want too, they just have to work for it. If it comes easy, then you won’t appreciate it’s value as much.
Wishing everyone a wonderful weekend, now go get whatever it is you want!